“It was not my mother-in-law who made me suffer.”
“The first time I heard Tuck Loon speak at Bodhi Heart, Penang, everything I thought I knew about [the awaken truth is] turned upside down. It was unlike anyone else I’ve heard before.
I used to get angry at others and blamed them for making me suffer. Now I understand that I’m the one who created these meanings and suffering for myself. Reality is just a series of happenings taking place, with meaning created by the delusion of the mind. With more understanding and more awareness, life became easier and more relaxed, with less judgements, anger, and the tendency to fix things.
For 30 years, I lived with my mother-in-law after I got married. I’ve always felt that she treated me unfairly. I had the idea that she was the one making me suffer, making my life miserable. Yet I had seen her wrongly. When I begun this journey, I shared with Tuck Loon what happened, and he said: “Look into your own mind.” It took me such a long time to finally understand what he was trying to point to me. The journey was not easy. But eventually, I was shown very clearly that what made me suffer was not my mother-in-law, but the meaning I’ve created in my own mind.
I asked my mother-in-law for forgiveness, and our relationship became very loving. Three months later, she passed away. I’m glad that I saw this reality—that it was the delusion in mind that was responsible for all these years of suffering, not her—before she passed away.
Tuck Loon started sharing with us in 2010, and rather than emphasizing sitting meditation, he shared right information and asked us to investigate and explore so that understanding can happen. Other spiritual teachers usually just gave instructions, taught us to do sitting and walking meditation, and rarely allowed us to share our experiences, which made it difficult to practice since there is no right understanding (of why we practice meditation).
In my gratitude, I have helped him to file and keep all his talks since August 2010, and collected all the messages of our community Whatsapp group for filing according to month and year. I’ve also transcribed some of his talks. Whether he needs it or not, he can always come to me for a backup of all his sharing.
What insp“The first time I heard Tuck Loon speak at Bodhi Heart, Penang, everything I thought I knew about [the awaken truth is] turned upside down. It was unlike anyone else I’ve heard before.
I used to get angry at others and blamed them for making me suffer. Now I understand that I’m the one who created these meanings and suffering for myself. Reality is just a series of happenings taking place, with meaning created by the delusion of the mind. With more understanding and more awareness, life became easier and more relaxed, with less judgements, anger, and the tendency to fix things.
For 30 years, I lived with my mother-in-law after I got married. I’ve always felt that she treated me unfairly. I had the idea that she was the one making me suffer, making my life miserable. Yet I had seen her wrongly. When I begun this journey, I shared with Tuck Loon what happened, and he said: “Look into your own mind.” It took me such a long time to finally understand what he was trying to point to me. The journey was not easy. But eventually, I was shown very clearly that what made me suffer was not my mother-in-law, but the meaning I’ve created in my own mind.
I asked my mother-in-law for forgiveness, and our relationship became very loving. Three months later, she passed away. I’m glad that I saw this reality—that it was the delusion in mind that was responsible for all these years of suffering, not her—before she passed away.
Tuck Loon started sharing with us in 2010, and rather than emphasizing sitting meditation, he shared right information and asked us to investigate and explore so that understanding can happen. Other spiritual teachers usually just gave instructions, taught us to do sitting and walking meditation, and rarely allowed us to share our experiences, which made it difficult to practice since there is no right understanding (of why we practice meditation).
In my gratitude, I have helped him to file and keep all his talks since August 2010, and collected all the messages of our community Whatsapp group for filing according to month and year. I’ve also transcribed some of his talks. Whether he needs it or not, he can always come to me for a backup of all his sharing.
What inspired me to do that? It takes the [like-minded community’s] effort to preserve the [realized] teachings, so that everybody can benefit. I appreciate the [liked-minded community’s] effort, so I put in a little bit of my time to preserve whatever Tuck Loon had shared in the hopes of benefitting others. We also have a sharing group in Penang every Tuesday from 11 am - 5 pm. All who are interested in this journey can join us. As the committee member for Tuck’s retreats in Penang, I also organize talks there every month.
The fog of delusion is so thick in all of us, so much more than wisdom, that it’s a challenge for those who reach out in an attempt to clear the little dust in their eyes. It’s easy to say something that everybody agrees with. It is far more difficult to speak of the reality that challenges delusion. Creative ways to reach out are needed, as such pure teachings tend to be in the minority.
I am deeply appreciating his presence in my pace in this lifetime.”ired me to do that? It takes the [like-minded community’s] effort to preserve the [realized] teachings, so that everybody can benefit. I appreciate the [liked-minded community’s] effort, so I put in a little bit of my time to preserve whatever Tuck Loon had shared in the hopes of benefitting others. We also have a sharing group in Penang every Tuesday from 11 am - 5 pm. All who are interested in this journey can join us. As the committee member for Tuck’s retreats in Penang, I also organize talks there every month.
The fog of delusion is so thick in all of us, so much more than wisdom, that it’s a challenge for those who reach out in an attempt to clear the little dust in their eyes. It’s easy to say something that everybody agrees with. It is far more difficult to speak of the reality that challenges delusion. Creative ways to reach out are needed, as such pure teachings tend to be in the minority.
I am deeply appreciating his presence in my pace in this lifetime.”
— Chui Peng, Housewife