Over the years, I thought that since I have read lots of spiritual books and listened to talks, my life would be happy forever. I thought I would be safe and never be hurt. I have even retreated from the outside world thinking the outside world has caused me to suffer. But… life is never a straight line; it is full of ups and downs! So, when facing challenges, I become stuck, standing at the crossroads – feeling lost, frustrated, and doubtful. Whatever that I have read or listened to, all forgotten, and I don’t know how to deal with it.

Year after year, I often wondered why love didn’t appear to me. Just as any teenager wonders the same thing when she sees her peers easily getting into a relationship or out of one. I always felt I was the odd one out.

When you hear the word "commitment", what crosses your mind? "Burden, less freedom, I wish I didn't have to do it, I wish I didn't say yes, when is it going to end, when can I be free from it..." The list goes on.

While comparing notes on our practice the other day, a friend asked, “How long have you been with WISE?”

The song keeps churning in my mind, again and again, long after I sang the lullaby to my little one an hour ago.

This is the best year of my life if there is such a thing as year or life.

I remember at a retreat years ago, having just undergone a process of mind-healing, I remarked: “Last night I slept soundly after all that crying.”

That which belongs to me. Forms my life story. I live an ordinary life or so I thought.

A clear blue sky above, chirping of a sparrow nearby and soft lush grass below your feet. Beams of glorious sunlight warm on your face.

Have you ever experienced catching a mouse that has come visiting your home?

I remember a game I once was fairly addicted to, a candy crush game.

One of my biggest fear is to make mistakes. I used to want perfection.

It hits me recently that we deal with life, not living life.

It has been a long week. No. Weeks, months, or even a year. You vaguely recall happier times when life was good and everything was going well.

Fight or flight?

Everyone experiences fear, yet we don't realise how it occurs.

Isn’t it strange that in improving relationships, we focus to learn more about others rather than ourselves?

As I sit facing my laptop, fingers on the keyboard, I let out a long audible SIGH….. Can you hear it? And why the sigh?

Again, this morning’s walk was beautiful because the mind was wholesome. It still remembered the sharings by Teacher Tuck Loon, moving the mind from dark to bright.

Please allow me to share something I learned at school and how it builds upon my learning here. When I was at school, I learned "一分耕耘，一分收获yī fēn gēngyún, yī fēn shōuhuò".